It's putting yourself out there
to find he doesn't put himself back
after all the months of
wishing and kissing and loving and leaving
you take a good step back
and look at everything from a peripheral view
he stands there, hands in his pockets
while your arms are stretched out wide
his mouth is busy blowing smoke rings
while yours is constantly running
trying to say everything you feel
He saw the urgency in your eyes
and chose to ignore it every single time